It’s true you don’t know what you have until it’s gone.
I took an SAT test a couple weeks before and I was asked to give examples to provide the saying ” you don’t know what you have until it’s gone”. It asked me to provide any example including historical or personal. If I was to be given this prompt again, I could provide a perfect personal example. Recently, I just lost something that can’t be bought or brought back, a friendship. I lost this person because I was being ignorant and silly, whatever you like to call it. The problem was that I pushed her away because I got frustrated how people never appreciate me, but it wasn’t directly towards her… it was to everyone. I’ve made mistakes in my life, I’m not perfect, fuck I’m far from perfect. I have alot of flaws that causes me to do irrational things and in the process lose valuable shit. However, I do have attributes, some people say the best part about me is the willingness to sacrifice just to make somebody else happy. We used to be close, you would share me your life stories and I would just be awe in astonishment. You would help me, and I would help you. Honestly, I’m looking back right now.. and I just feel empty knowing that’s gone. I’ve made one mistake. One major mistake. But honestly.. can you judge someone off one mistake? A mistake that won’t happen again. A mistake that I regret. A mistake that if i could, I would take back. I’m not perfect, but at the end of the day who is? Who is? I do live up to my name.. Crazy Andy, yeah, I was crazy for pushing away a friend like you.
It’s funny how
people will always say anything to make you listen to their crap when they’re feeling down in the dumps. You were never there for me.
Don’t know what to say or do
I’m running out of options and time. How do you try to convince somebody to give you a second chance when they won’t even try to listen to you? So frustrated.
Second Chances
I know I’ve done wrong. I know I’ve said things that shouldn’t have been said. I know nothing I can say or do can make it up to you. I know nothing matters at this point in this time. My greatest mistake was believing that you would be kind enough to forgive easily. I’ve never been so wrong in my life before. I’m not asking you to forgive me or act like nothing happen. Because the truth is, it’s there and we can’t avoid it. All I’m asking for a second chance; a new opportunity.
Don’t attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you’re lonely. Loneliness is the human condition no one is ever going to fill that space, the best you can do is know yourself, know what you want.
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